Do you remember your first best friend? Do you recall what you used to do for fun, what games you played, what made you happy? Do you remember your first day at school, your first fear, your first secret? Do you remember your first kiss, the first time your heart skipped a beat at the thought of someone?
All these early memories are hidden in Lebanon for me. The greet me each time I go back stirring a panorama of emotions that are soul deep. Going back is like stepping into a hall of mirrors, where you face yourself, all the different sides of you, your journey back into where it all began this time around…and it is not all butterflies and flowers.
photo: abandoned truck on the side of a mountain road in Lebanon
welcome to the future
Do you remember the movies we saw about the future, where everything was glowing with strange lights, the sky a strange shade of fluorescent green, people walking with strange electronic devices, humans strolling almost like robots oblivious of other earthlings around them, television screens with worlds flying floating on them on installed on almost everything including buildings and cars… well this future is here and it is in reality even stranger than that.
I remember seeing a movie that made a huge impact on me when I was younger, it was called “until the end of the world” with William Hurt. I never ever forgot that movie and it keeps coming to mind every so often. It had foreseen speaking navigation systems in cars, people recording their dreams and being completely obsessed with watching themselves over and over again on little screens… a strange movie predicting strange times. When I step back and look at our lives today, we are living these strange times, only they are much much more fantastical than what was predicted. I recommend seeing that movie again if you are into such films.
As a mother of an only daughter, I am fascinated with the differences between boys and girls and their varying natures. From a very early age, boys seem to be more ‘on the go’. It is as though they are always late for some appointment, they want to get there faster. I am almost certain it was a man who first invented the wheel and the practical woman who showed him how it works! But yes, boys love cars, planes, motorcycles, boats, speed…
photo: Little Leo with his truck in Marienbaum, Germany